Hard lessons on patience
It’s been a whirlwind of a few months and at the heart of it all seems to be one underlying lesson: patience. Looking back, I can hear the whisperings of this lesson repeated over and over.
10 days of intense pain, 3 ER visits, 2 hospital stays and an emergency surgery later… oh, and pneumonia Patience… you can be a stronger, better person because of this.
I’m back home and everything is a struggle. Getting out of bed, showering, walking, standing. Patience… it’s okay to lean on your husband. This experience is for him too.
Still can’t get out to the living room on my own. Patience… you may be frustrated with it, but your body is incredible. It will heal; give it time.
Healing is happening. The fog of pain medication lifts… right as the morning sickness settles in. Patience… you’ve been blessed with a miracle. Try to look past the discomfort of the moment and see it for what it is.
Patience isn’t about just clenching your teeth and making it through the day. It’s about taking a step back and seeing each moment for what it is. Then moving forward, even if that’s one teeny tiny step at a time. It’s about cherishing the life, your life, that you have the opportunity to live. It’s about trusting that through the ups and downs - especially the downs - you have the ability to emerge a better, stronger person.
Sometimes learning lessons like these is hard work. And I guess sometimes it takes a lifetime of experiences for it to really sink in. Either way, I’m left hoping that I soaked up from these past experiences what I was meant to. I guess if nothing else, I know I certainly got a lot of practice :)
Whatever hard experiences you may be facing and living right now, big or small, life-altering or just plain hard, my heart goes out to you. Because it’s so not easy! You may have to dig deep for it, but I promise a little patience will go a long way.
And just know, I'll be digging deep for that patience right alongside you. The roller coaster hasn't slowed down for me yet. Apparently I need more practice!